One had to become more than 40 years old to understand what happens...
Married with an amazing wife, whom you got wonderful children with, it is difficult to understand that there is another reality, too. The reality of men whom you want to do more with than only to discuss cars, football or children.
What will happen if your wife will understand the signs you send out to her without knowing about them? What will happen if some guy understands the signs you send out to him while you know about these signs?
She knows that you are bisexual. You had men (and women) before her. But the men's power is still attracting you. You want to get near to them. You want to get into them. You want them to get into you. But you ove your wife and your children and your family life. Nevertheless, sometimes it happens...