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Rothschild Av. corner of Drottninggatan
An Israeli gay guy dreaming about Sweden. Been there relatively many times. Not enough though. It gets harder and harder to come back to Israel every time.

This blog is mostly for me. I find myself sometimes sitting on the train on my way to work, walking along the street - hearing something, seeing something, thinking about something, and want to tell somebody. Write it, maybe.
So you're my media, you're my substrates.
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All entries from September


I forgive you. Because I can.

Aegir  (updated by Aegir)
To you, the man who ruined my best years - I forgive. This day, upon Yom KIppur, the day in which a man is doing some thinking and calculations about his life, the day of atonement, I've made some thinking too. Though there are some people to whom I owe an apology and to which I need to grt on my knee to ask their forgivness, today is my time to forgive too. I forgive you today. I forgive you because I can, because I have the power to. I forgive you because now you have no dominance on me. I am stronger than before. You are nothing. I came back from a life of darkness and death wishes, to a life of light and hope for growth and development. And you? I guess you still pretend to be a holy Rabbi, maybe you have done the same to other boys.  I forgive you, so I could be released from your prison. I forgive you because I know that the power of forgiveness holds the greatest energy. Now, here and today, at this holy day, the holiest of all, in which the gates to heaven are opened and God is sitting there and calculation, I release myself from your locks.  I'm a new and improved Alon. Like the one lived before you came and smashed him. And you? I feel sorry for you. But I forgive you. You have been forgiven.
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Life.

Aegir
I'm going to base this moment on who I'm stuck in a room with. It's what life is. It's a series of rooms and who we get stuck in those rooms with adds up to what our lives are.

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Severe writing block

Aegir

So i'm writing a post. For the last 4 days. And I can't seem to finish it.

Not because I'm super busy, not because I don't know what to write about, but because it's a post about him - the guy I loved once, about my side of the story. As I learned it's not good to artificially stop thinking about things and hide them, I want (I need!!) to write my side of the story.

 

I'm writing a sentence, and stopping. And another paragraph, and I stop. I know it's like removing a bandage from a healing wound, you need to do it fast for minimal pain but I can't.

 

So keep on waiting, it will come. I promise. I'm letting it out.

Off to the beach again,

Alon

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2f76

Happy new Jewish year!

Aegir
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Israeli treat: Muli Karcho

Aegir

Tags: sex culture photo & art

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Today's Israeli Hunks

Aegir

Tags: society photo & art

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Israel - Small but (damn) Outstanding!

Aegir
Come and visit us, in Haifa, Jerusalem, Eilat, Sea of Galilei, Dead Sea and of course - Tel Aviv, the gay capital of 2012!

Tags: religion society culture travel food & recipes

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2f0e

Skazi - Like a Worrier

Aegir

Tags: music

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Adam and Adam

Aegir  (updated by Aegir)

 

 

Imagine yourselves a world in which the normal is a man living with a man and a woman with a woman.

In this world, a doctor wakes up in the morning, gives his partner a kiss, says goodbye to his kids and goes to work.

A businesswoman meets her partner in a coffee place for lunch, talks endlessly and mostly does things girls like to do.

The pilot flies above the country and protect its citizens, looking like ants from the sky. He thinks of his partner that probably sleeps a good night sleep, knowing his partner protects him.

The university teacher is teaching a course about the origin of straight sexual orientation and the theories for its development.

A young guy feels the need to share things with someone, but he doesn’t know with whom. He gathers all is best friends, telling them that he’s attracted to a girl in his class. His friends are a bit shocked, but accept him as he is. They hug him, and tell him they love him as he is.

A girl telling her primitive father that she’s dating a guy for a long period of time, after he caught them together.

How would a straight guy or girl feel in such a world? Would he feel different? Strange? Rejected?

I was born gay. I will die gay. This how my genes directed my life to be. This is how god intended me to be. And I accept it as it is.

 

Yours,

Alon

Tags: personal dating society culture

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Jag hatar att jag älskar dig

Aegir
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